The Cutest Thing!!!

This weekend Ben came to Dunedin. Friday night I told him how it had been nearly a year since I walked on the beach, so Ben suggested we went on Saturday. Unfortunately we couldn't because we didn't have time and the weather forcast wasn't looking good and Sunday I had to work.

I went to work today and saw Ben on my lunch break and about 5 minutes before he had to catch the bus home. He told me he had a surprise waiting for me at home... I spent the rest of my day fidgeting and watching the clock.... Eventually it hit 6:30pm and I was able to leave work. When I got home, this is what I found on my bedroom floor...

Ben made my very own beach at home!!!
On top of the sand he left a note for me... I couldn't help but shed a few tears. The note was SUPER cute and the whole idea behind the surprise was definitely sweet.

It's nice to know that boys can still be cute and romantic.. when they want to hehe.

THANK YOU BABY!!! xoxoxox

A New Chapter In My Beautiful Life

Hello Readers =]

So in case you haven't noticed from the title of my blog... I am SO SO SO SO happy hehe.
I have been waiting for ages to blog about it... So here I go...

I'M ENGAGED!!!!!

Yeap, I'm engaged to my boyfriend of nearly 3 years. Two weeks ago (the last time Ben was here) I had to go on some tours to the Peninsula for the day. While I was away Ben went and brought the ring, and when I got back I was freezing. So what did I do? I put my hands into his pockets and felt the box!!! I was so surprised that he had it. We had spoken of marriage before and to be honest, he had asked me on my 18th birthday if I would marry him (it was his form of a birthday present). I only told a few friends but it wasn't official because we obviously didn't have a ring.

Anyway back to the story!!! I just pretended I hadn't felt it... Even though Ben clearly knew I had. He then took me out for dinner and all I could think was "Please don't ask me here or else everyone will see me cry". Of course because I'm naturally a shy girl, being asked to marry someone in public isn't my kinda thing (although I wouldn't be 100% against it). We then made our way home, it had been a big day for me and all I really felt like doing was curling up in bed with a hot cuppa. We got home and then Ben took the box out of his pocket. It was wrapped in shiney wrapping paper with a ribbon bow on top. I unwrapped it, being careful not to rip the paper and just took my time. Once the box was out I gave it to Ben and asked him to open it. He opened the box and all I could do was smile and feel my eyes begin to water. He then said a giant speech in a very quiet, calm and steady voice. Every word he said just made my legs turn to jelly, my smile get bigger and of course release the flood gates.


White Gold and Diamond =]

So its clear what happened next... I said yes, I cried, we hugged, we kissed and I became the HAPPIEST girl ever!

This weekend after alot of thought on how and when to tell the family... we finally did it. I wasn't with Ben when he told his dad but I don't think it was a bad reaction. We saw his mum yesterday and as soon as I saw her I felt like hiding under a rock. The nervousness had finally kicked in and I didn't want one bar of it. We went out for coffee and then Ben dropped the bomb. Beforehand she was freaking out that I was pregnant, but once we told her, she just smiled and was extremely happy for us!!! I don't think I will ever forget her reaction. Tonight however, I told my parents... There reaction wasn't as good as Paula's (Ben's mum), but they were happy for us. Their only advise... Don't rush into the wedding. Oh and my dad "I expect Ben to ask for my permission when you come home, but I'm happy for you, but I expect him to ask". I just laughed which made him laugh too.

This all reassured me in some way. I feel so blessed to have a family that now understands I'm not a little girl anymore, and they trust my decisions. And to feel a great sense of welcoming into Ben's family and as though my future (our future) is nothing but bright. To have our families support really has made me so much happier. And I can't wait for the planning and stress of a wedding hehe.

xoxoxox

Love is...

Today Ben and I went into Whitcouls to buy a road code, and while Ben was doing that, I found a cute little book about the size of a post-it note.The title was "Love is" by Kim Casali.

I thought this book had some very relevant points...something like...

Emotions... who needs them?

So like usual, I went to Ben's this weekend. I arrived early (thanks to Lily giving me a ride from Dunedin). We had heaps of fun. It was a lazy weekend for me (like usual) and I played 'house-wifey' again...cooking, cleaning etc. But Sunday finally rolled around and it was time for me to leave =[
I started crying when it came close to Ben having to go to work. He leaves about 2ish so he's not home when I leave for the bus station. We were just sitting in the lounge eating lunch, so I excused myself and sat on the couch outside on the patio (it was sunny and warm). He came outside after about 15 minutes and saw me crying an immediatly thought it was because I wouldn't see him for a week. I shook my head and told him that wasn't the reason....The real reason... I think I love him again.
Now this is the dilemma.... We are only 17, so do we really know what love is????
And when I say again...this is because over the summer, Ben and I broke up after being together for over a year and a half. I took the brake up pretty hard, especially when I discovered he had got another girlfriend a few weeks later. Anyway we got back together in February (when I moved to Dunedin) and then after about a month...we went through yet another rough patch. This was because we both realised our feelings weren't exactly as strong as they use to be (which is understandable right?). But we knew we wanted to make it work again, and stuck at it... For ages we never said "I love you", we just started from scratch...
Back to the story... I explained to Ben that I was crying because I thought I loved him again, and was scared of it. I didn't want to 'fall in love' with someone who wasn't ready for that and then decide to leave me a few months down the track. He just sat there hugging me and explained that he did love me, but was too scared to say it because it didn't want to 'hurt me' again. The next thing I knew, I was balling my eyes out again because he said it, and from his face and voice, he genuinly ment it.
I find that I'm not scared to care anymore, and that I believe him when he tells me he doesn't want anyone else and won't leave me. I just hope it's the right thing to think. So anybody who reads this.... Do you think I'm doing the right thing? and is love all it seems???