For the past hour, I have been contemplating on whether or not to make this blog. I have a diray of my own that I write in, it's actually a large text book with tear out pages, I put photos and cut outs into and write about pretty much everything...It's my creative side coming out. I thought maybe one "diary" would be enough...But then I thought... This blog doesn't have to be a diary, just every now and then I can come online, type about my day/week/month etc, and not get too in depth about emotions as I do in my written diary.
Another advantage... People I barely keep in touch with can read this, I can post photos on it and write about anything other than MY DAY!!!! Its amazing hahaha.
So after telling myself I would write this...I spent another 10 minutes thinking of a title!!! And this seems to be the ONE!
For two reasons...one being this is my first blog and the other being I had a great weekend that made me feel like I was number one!
On Thursday night my boyfriend (Ben) came down. We see each other almost every weekend as he lives about 2 hours away and is a full time dairy farmer. He was meant to arrive on Friday night, but managed to get a ride with his friend on Thursday and surprised me. I was so happy and excited and he could see it. I pretty much threw myself at him when I opened the door...Anyone would've thought I hadn't seen him for ages!!! When really it had only been 3 or 4 days.
That night was epic. I was so tired but so excited I just couldn't sleep!!! We talked and talked and talked...as if we had heaps to catch up on. The next day I had course...and that dragged on. I just wanted to go home because I knew Ben would be there...But 4 o'clock couldn't come more slowly! We went into town pretty much straight after and saw his friend Tereinamu and his older sister Stacey. It was awkward for me to start off with because I'm a little shy around people and will only put my 5 cents in if I feel the need, whereas these two just talked....alot. I didn't mind listening though, I liked hearing all their yarns with Ben...Ben's as much of a talker as they are.
Afterwards we went to the movies. We saw Boy, based on a little Maori boys life somewhere in the north island in the 70's/80's. The trailers made it look so funny, that I went in with high expectations. Now don't get me wrong...It was good, but not THAT good. Then afterwards we went back to Stacey's flat.
We didn't get home til 1.00am, i was knacked. The next day we were meant to go to the Circus at 2...But i felt like curling up to Ben in bed =]..we didn't get ready til around 1. We got there 5 minutes late, but didn't matter in the end seen as Ben had a hair appointment at 3.15 and the show went for 2 hours. We decided to go at 7.
The Circus was amazing!!! It was just a bunch of Chinese acrobats that just made everyone gasp at everything they did. At one point, two guys were doing a show and were high up in the air...I seriously felt scared for them! It was awesome! Afterwards wasn't as good though. It was freezing cold and we had to walk home, luckily i left my heater on so it would be nice and warm hehe. Ben and I just layed in bed and talked afterwards. He told me the sweetest things, I felt like I didn't have to worry anymore...everything felt like how it use to...before all the drama started and all the excuses and worrying.
Today was good too. On Thursday I told Ben he should see his mum this weekend, considering he hadn't seen her in a while, and today he finally did. We went out to lunch with her, his step dad, little brother and little sister. His mum was so cute when she saw him, she just embraced him...like she never wanted to let him go. It felt like a pretty honest and special moment from where I was sitting. He and his mum just talked, while I sat there yet again just listening...But I didn't mind. It made me feel good that Ben was happy and in a good place with his family. I tend to worry alot about him being by himself. I know he's a big boy, and I don't have to "mother" him, but when I have to sit there and see how much he admires his family and still be so distant from them...it hurts...I hate seeing him upset, especially since I can't really do alot about it apart from try to take his mind off it.
When he left his mum's house, he didn't exactly leave on a goo
d note, so to see how happy he was today really made my day. When they left, Ben went quite. I knew he missed her already, even though he wouldn't admit it..stubborn as a horse he is. I would've just hugged him then and there on the street if we weren't on such a mission to get to the bus station.
Anyway now I'm back at my flat and Ben is most likely comered in his own bed on the farm. I feel like something is missing from my room. I got so use to having Ben here (along with the mess on the floor) and now its gone. And he doesn't have his phone, so I can't talk to him..and maybe not get to his house next weekend....what a bum way to end the day. But thinking about my weekend seems to outshine it....
xox
Another advantage... People I barely keep in touch with can read this, I can post photos on it and write about anything other than MY DAY!!!! Its amazing hahaha.
So after telling myself I would write this...I spent another 10 minutes thinking of a title!!! And this seems to be the ONE!
For two reasons...one being this is my first blog and the other being I had a great weekend that made me feel like I was number one!
On Thursday night my boyfriend (Ben) came down. We see each other almost every weekend as he lives about 2 hours away and is a full time dairy farmer. He was meant to arrive on Friday night, but managed to get a ride with his friend on Thursday and surprised me. I was so happy and excited and he could see it. I pretty much threw myself at him when I opened the door...Anyone would've thought I hadn't seen him for ages!!! When really it had only been 3 or 4 days.
That night was epic. I was so tired but so excited I just couldn't sleep!!! We talked and talked and talked...as if we had heaps to catch up on. The next day I had course...and that dragged on. I just wanted to go home because I knew Ben would be there...But 4 o'clock couldn't come more slowly! We went into town pretty much straight after and saw his friend Tereinamu and his older sister Stacey. It was awkward for me to start off with because I'm a little shy around people and will only put my 5 cents in if I feel the need, whereas these two just talked....alot. I didn't mind listening though, I liked hearing all their yarns with Ben...Ben's as much of a talker as they are.
Afterwards we went to the movies. We saw Boy, based on a little Maori boys life somewhere in the north island in the 70's/80's. The trailers made it look so funny, that I went in with high expectations. Now don't get me wrong...It was good, but not THAT good. Then afterwards we went back to Stacey's flat.
We didn't get home til 1.00am, i was knacked. The next day we were meant to go to the Circus at 2...But i felt like curling up to Ben in bed =]..we didn't get ready til around 1. We got there 5 minutes late, but didn't matter in the end seen as Ben had a hair appointment at 3.15 and the show went for 2 hours. We decided to go at 7.
The Circus was amazing!!! It was just a bunch of Chinese acrobats that just made everyone gasp at everything they did. At one point, two guys were doing a show and were high up in the air...I seriously felt scared for them! It was awesome! Afterwards wasn't as good though. It was freezing cold and we had to walk home, luckily i left my heater on so it would be nice and warm hehe. Ben and I just layed in bed and talked afterwards. He told me the sweetest things, I felt like I didn't have to worry anymore...everything felt like how it use to...before all the drama started and all the excuses and worrying.
Today was good too. On Thursday I told Ben he should see his mum this weekend, considering he hadn't seen her in a while, and today he finally did. We went out to lunch with her, his step dad, little brother and little sister. His mum was so cute when she saw him, she just embraced him...like she never wanted to let him go. It felt like a pretty honest and special moment from where I was sitting. He and his mum just talked, while I sat there yet again just listening...But I didn't mind. It made me feel good that Ben was happy and in a good place with his family. I tend to worry alot about him being by himself. I know he's a big boy, and I don't have to "mother" him, but when I have to sit there and see how much he admires his family and still be so distant from them...it hurts...I hate seeing him upset, especially since I can't really do alot about it apart from try to take his mind off it.
When he left his mum's house, he didn't exactly leave on a goo
d note, so to see how happy he was today really made my day. When they left, Ben went quite. I knew he missed her already, even though he wouldn't admit it..stubborn as a horse he is. I would've just hugged him then and there on the street if we weren't on such a mission to get to the bus station.Anyway now I'm back at my flat and Ben is most likely comered in his own bed on the farm. I feel like something is missing from my room. I got so use to having Ben here (along with the mess on the floor) and now its gone. And he doesn't have his phone, so I can't talk to him..and maybe not get to his house next weekend....what a bum way to end the day. But thinking about my weekend seems to outshine it....
xox
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